30 November 2005

The Nightmare of Christmas Present


While I was sitting here listening quietly to some of the most soul chilling Christmas music I was shocked to discover this sad display of just another reason why Santa Clause should not be shoved down children's throats. We should listen to the cries of our little ones and not force them into this torturous ordeal.
Santa Clause. What to say of the good Coca Cola classic icon of what Christmas is all about? Well, not only does he insult Good St. Nicholas and our holy Cathoic faith, but he spoon-feeds the gluttonous materialism children today are suffering from. What's worse, it doesn't matter whether the children are naughty or nice, they get whatever they want and if they don't get it they fuss and complain without ever saying thank you for all they already have been given. If this so called "Santa" who displays no proof of being at all Catholic or holy, did exist, and I were him, I'd say there are a mass of children getting lignite coal in their stockings this year; it might wake them up, you never know. Nothing like a little black coal to warm the heart, huh?
Not only is Santa Clause deceptive, he's also annoying. I never really liked him; something is wrong with a man who never looks the same twice. Poor children. What torture they endure at the hands of parents of modern culture. Sorry Caleb and Hayley. One day...one day, I hope things will change.
Merry Advent to all and to all a good night...

The English Mind of the Me


Some people ask me why I have chosen English as my major. My answer... to further my ability to communicate both orally and textually those traditions and beliefs I hold most near to my heart. Though all majors are good, none of them allow the student to understand how to communicate their ideas like English and for this reason I choose it for my primary study.
English is a beautiful language when it’s spoken properly, yet who speaks it in its pure form anymore? So few children today know how to write well or express their thoughts verbally which I suspect is due to a lack of proper education in this field. Not only is writing and oral expression a necessity in this life, it is also something that we use for the bulk of our human existence. How can a person do anything without the practical use of good communication? Indeed, they won’t go far in life without this practical skill. Additionally, who doesn’t love that sense of satisfaction one gets after having successfully expressed to others what one believes and feels? It’s a moment of great pleasure to be sure, but most young people don’t know what they’re missing and this must end.
In my field of work, which, please God, will be teaching, I hope to associate whatever texts or assignments we have to work on with our glorious Catholic faith. (This assumes I will be teaching in a Catholic institute.) This won’t be too arduous of a task I can assure you. Through my own years of study, I have come to be amazed as to how much scandal lurks in the pages of classical literature. This being such, I hope to disclose these sinful behaviors to the students since much of what happened centuries ago is happening today and this would be a ripe opportunity to discuss with them why these behaviors are wrong and then go into the consequences of these sinful acts. This will be where those fun five page essays assignments come into play. Doesn’t everyone love to write?
Though all of what I have mentioned is fine and noble, I should mention that the real passion in my heart beats for something far superior. There is nothing in this life which would please me more than to be spread the truth of Christ to those who have never had a chance to know it. Today, I see a world permeated with immorality and apostasy and my heart aches to think of where these poor souls will be unless someone is out there educating them by exposing the lies the world has sold to them.
The American culture needs to be reformed by our living out our Catholic faith and a great place to start is with our youth by giving them a proper Catholic education which has been robbed from our world. As St. Thomas More believed faith works with reason and if we can bring this great faith to our children by proper formation both in areas academic and religious , then I have faith that we might have a chance of rescuing our world from the grip of Satan and restore, to and through Christ, His wayward children.
So why English and not Theology? While religion is my love one must be practical, I have to work, I have to eat. (I’ll master in theology :)
St. Thomas More, St. Ignatius and St.Angela Merici, pray for us and save our sullied schools and our slothful students.

25 November 2005

John Donne, Undun


As I sit here huddling up to my space heater so my little fingers do not freeze off I am thinking of what I should write about next. While I don't want to be a bore, I do want to write about my own interests. That's the point of this thing, no? So what will I choose to write for tonight? Well, it should be something I find personally interesting, that's obvious, but I also want it bear some universal appeal. I've got it. Poetry! She's the lucky winner folks. So here you have it, Poetry. Let's begin shall we? (Please don't mind my melodrama; I've recently had some serious sips of Limoncello and am very peppered.)
While it is common knowledge (if you've kept up with my blogs) that I am a student, it would help if you knew that I am an English major and, being that I am, I have a deep love for poetry. Yet, up until this last spring, I never knew what a poem could do to a person. I never walked into the mind of a poet, I never plunged myself into their hearts, listened to their words or saw with their eyes. However, last April that all changed. Last spring I took a Literary Studies course and in it everyone was required to blindly choose a poem, explicate it and then present the poem to the class. The poem I chose was one written by one of my now favorite poets, John Donne. The poem I chose happened to be one of Donne's most noted pieces; the title of the poem is "Valediction: Forbidden Mourning."
You wouldn't believe how much this poem touched me. I discussed it with family, friends, co-workers. It blew me away! In point of fact, it even drove me to read it at a public poetry reading at my school. This I can tell you is so unlike me, but again, it affected me so deeply that I wanted to share this experience with others.
In this poem I discovered what it was to enter into the metaphysical world of a poet. By metaphysical I mean something that "investigates the world by rational discussion of its phenomena rather than by intuition or mysticism." (Anniina Jokinen "17th C. English Literature : Metaphysical Poets.") In plain English, it is something that compares people, experiences or thoughts using paradoxical expressions and intellectual wit.
The layers of meaning enveloping this particular poem staggers the mind. Once you start to see the poem in its proper perspective the mouth drops and the mind stops to bask in the glory of this ingenious work. To attempt to explain what it was like for me to explicate this poem I'll give you an analogy. The experience reminded me of those pictures at mall kiosks in the early 90's. The picture, when you first looked at it, was a bunch of replicated lines with splotches of color interwoven amidst them. If you're twenty four or older you'll know what I'm talking about. Yet, when you'd stare at it the image long enough, you're eyes would cross and then you'd see a three dimensional figure come to life. It was really cool once your eyes adjusted and you could see the picture for the reality it was. Unfortunately I don't think they make them anymore. Anyway, that adjusting of the eyes is something of what I felt happen to me, only in a metaphysical (meaning beyond the physical) sense, when I explicated this poem. Now enough talk. Here it is....

Valediction: Forbidden Mourning

As virtuous men pass mildly away,
And whisper to their souls to go,
Whilst some of their sad friends do say,
"Now his breath goes," and some say, "No."

So let us melt, and make no noise,
No tear-floods, nor sigh-tempests move;
'Twere profanation of our joys
To tell the laity our love.

Moving of th' earth brings harms and fears;
Men reckon what it did, and meant;
But trepidation of the spheres,
Though greater far, is innocent.

Dull sublunary lovers' love
Whose soul is sense cannot admit
Of absence, 'cause it doth remove
The thing which elemented it.

But we by a love so much refined,
That ourselves know not what it is,
Inter-assured of the mind,
Care less, eyes, lips and hands to miss.

Our two souls therefore, which are one,
Though I must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion,
Like gold to aery thinness beat.

If they be two, they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two;
Thy soul, the fix'd foot, makes no show
To move, but doth, if th' other do.

And though it in the centre sit,
Yet, when the other far doth roam,
It leans, and hearkens after it,
And grows erect, as that comes home.

Such wilt thou be to me, who must,
Like th' other foot, obliquely run;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where I begun.

I don't want to leave you reading this poem at face value without further explaining what it means. First you need to know the context of the poem. For one thing, John wrote this to his wife, Anne, as he was leaving to go an a three month holiday to France with some buddies. This poem therefore reflects a good bye to her and reveals Donne's impression of what real love is and what their love means to him. What you are about to read is an edited version of the explication I presented. Forgive my contrast in tonality, I had to be formal.

Donne, having had great knowledge of alchemy and astronomy, uses related images in his poem to symbolize the profound level of love held between he and his wife. These images of circular realities recur throughout the poem. Planets, compasses, gold, whose symbol is a circle with a point in the center , circular rings, spheres... All speak of a harmony, a unity, a perfect completion. Historically, the circle was symbolic of eternity and perfection representative of the Holy Trinity. It would not be so unlike Donne to have compared his love to that of the Trinity as he understood the depth and beauty of God's love and perfection, and wished to compare his own love with his wife the Theirs. Yes, Donne was a melancholic.
In the first stanza Donne makes the distinction between man and the soul. The body "whisper[s] to their souls to go", as though in death. The separation of two intimately related beings. One being dead without the other. Yet as "the virtuous men" (the strong, the faithful man) "passes mildly away", he knows he can go, resting assure that his love is secure with his beloved, unlike those who when the "breath goes now some say no." In other words, his relationship withstands all absence in silent peace and "makes no noise." This point is reaffirmed when Donne writes "no tear-floods, nor sigh-tempests move." Tears are not necessary for a love as sublime as theirs.
"[T]were profanation of our joys to tell the laity our love." By this he reveals how their love is so sacred, so soaring above the natural layer of affection, that it is not worthy of being shared among the commoner, the "laity", as it would tinge the virtue of the love they share.
The weakness of bodily love, "whose soul is sense", results in "harms and fears". These relationships cannot sustain a separation without great aversion. Conversely, when there exists a parting between those who "love in the mind", represented by the moving of planets or "spheres", in times of "trepidation" which is "greater far," since it is above that of the common man, there is no harm or great loss, since it is superior, as it "is innocent" i.e. harmless, trusted. No distance can shake their unity no matter how far they part. His love, like the graceful planets, moves peacefully even when having to span great distance.
In the fourth stanza Donne reiterates this point. He makes the case that worldly love "dull sublunary lovers love" like the earth is unpredictable, subject to disaster. For when one "[d]oth remov[es] that which elemented it" it crumbles i.e. without the physical presence of the other loves, the love shatters and ends in disaster.
Yet his love "so much refined" that they themselves cannot fathom its depths, "that ourselves know not what it is," do not depend on the physical presence of the other to exist in their love, "[c]are less, eyes, lips and hands to miss." It is not in the body that her seeks his love but in her soul.
"Our two souls therefore which are one," alluding to the Catholic teaching that in marriage the two shall become as one flesh, states how one may leave and yet remain still near. As by beating gold it expands, so does the love of lovers when separated.
He further uses the symbol of the compass to illustrate this point. This, I believe, is one of the most beautiful metaphors Donne uses to describe their relationship. Donne states that if one were to say they were two, then they are two like the points of a compass are two. The one stays put, "thy soul, the fixed foot makes no show to move," yet follows from afar should the other "lead."
After having done some research on the subject, I discovered that the compass he is referring to is not a map compass, it is a drawing compass. This makes more sense when comparing his words to his relationship. "Though it in the center sit, and yet the other far doth roam..." "and comes erect as that comes home". She being his stability ( i.e. the needle in the center) stays while he goes abroad, yet in truth they never separate just as two points never separate on the compass. He being like the pencil foot, "obliquely run[s]" and is made "just" i.e. perfect as a circle is drawn perfect only because the center needle holds its ground while the other traces around it making him "end where he begun". After coming full circle he finds perfection, he finds unity and he finds his one true love, his wife, upon his return from his journey.

I know this was a mindful and perhaps even poorly worded, but I hope you persevered with it because the beauty it contains is truly praiseworthy. We can learn much from it by desiring love that is real not fleeting; love that is pure not sensate; love that is just not bent on the perverse. So if any of you out there tonight have nothing better to do, pick up an old book of poems and try to experience the world of a poet. It's worth the effort even if you hate poems. You never know what goodies you may find. Well, I've met my bedtime so it's time to sign off. Here's wishing everyone a holy and blessed Advent. Buona Notte y'all!

20 November 2005

The Greatest Gift


"It is not granted to the merits of men that a man should touch and consecrate Christ's sacrament and make the bread of angels his food. Great is this mystery and great is the dignity of priests who have been given powers not granted to angels. For priests only, duly ordained in the Church, have power to offer Mass and consecrate Christ's body. When a priest celebrates Mass he honors God; he gladdens the angels; he strengthens the Church; he succer the people; he gives rest to the dead-he makes himself a sharer of all good things" (Imitation of Christ 4:5)

Let us always remember this. The office of a priest is of higher dignity than an angels. Therefore, we must love and pray for our priests both good and otherwise. They have been called to fulfill a great responsibility before God, yet they cannot survive these tumultuous times without our prayers and sacrifices. We must rally our hearts and fight for our priests; they are being hunted by demons who seek nothing but to sift them like wheat. We must be there for them as they fight against all hell to fulfill this sacred calling and thus save souls. Let us love our priests enough so to lay down ourselves for them as they have for us; for no greater love than this hath man known.
May the mystical body of Christ not allow the heart to suffer alone in its effort to fight this diabolic cancer. We should all of us, every member of the Body of Christ, come together to support and strengthen this vital organ called the priesthood which keeps our very bodies and souls alive. To the Divine Heart of Jesus we confide this heart. God save our priests, God save our heart.

12 November 2005

Viva Amore



Having just returned from Roma I have so much to tell. I went to Rome for my sister's wedding at the Vatican and can only say that I felt like it was all a dream. It was so beautiful, so surreal that it could have been an illusion. Can you imagine being married at St. Peter's Basilica and, with that, at the tomb of St. John Chrysostom? Amazing doesn't due justice in describing the incredibility of the moment. Although my sister did not know who this man was, it nevertheless touched my soul knowing that she was exchanging her vows of love before all of Heaven but particularly before the tomb of this awesome Saint. How symbolic it was. The union of two people in the sacrament of marriage literally standing parallel with the tomb of a man who achieved the great spiritual union with Christ through the means of personal sanctity. Two unions, both holy, one symbolic of the other. Doesn't it take your heart away?
Hearing my sister and her husband share the intimacy of their love as they exchanged their vows was verily inspiring. I was moved to tears as I watched and listened as they promised one another their fidelity and love. It was a moment of indescribable emotion. If only I had the gift of expression I could say what it was it did to me, but alas I suffer not to possess this gift and so only my frustration and vain attempt to express it will suffice to convey its impact upon me. Forgive my intellectual incompetence. It suffices I say that it was something I will never forget.
It has been many a year since I last attended a wedding but I was happy to witness this sacred moment since at this wedding the realization of what marriage is hit me harder than a ton of bricks. Don't ask me why but it did. The sacrificing of one's love and life for another with the promise of abandoning all things for the sake of that love and to satisfy the will of God. How incredible, how divine! To my bitter regret so few couples understand, or worst, even want to understand the beauty of the sacrament of marriage. Despite what public opinion says, marriage is not simply a one day celebration full of pretty dresses, lots of wine and good friends. It is a lifetime commitment which people should take much more seriously. The theology involved in a marriage is as involved as any of the other sacred mysteries of Christ yet why don't we give it the same respect and reverence as we do these others? Well, maybe we don't give the other sacraments their due respect and therein lies our problem. The great mystery of marriage lies is in the fact that it is one of the means God created to sanctify humanity and to procreate mankind, which He can only enact by the free will offering of man and woman in the marital embrace. It is a holy and happy means to salvation but only if it is worked at by prayer and self-denial. But this subject could take me another hour to write about so I'll now return to my sister...
My sister's wedding was indeed laced with many special graces but it also carried with that it a spirit of melancholy which most of us know and appreciate if we've suffered the loss of someone close to us. Though I am not one for getting too personal on a blog seeing that I know not who reads this, I will admit that I have suffered the loss of those dear to my heart, but now again, I will suffer the loss of my sister for she will live her marital life on that lush emerald isle which we know as Ireland. But as the Italians say "c'e vivo". I've lived through these losses so may times that one would think I'd start to accept it, but I don't. Yet I pray by the grace of God that this sadness will convert into a hope that will lead me onward towards a world where goodbyes do not exist and where people will never have to be without those whom they love.
I hate saying goodbye. I think it is the most deplorable expression in existence outside of saying "I hate you." To separate or to no longer see someone you love is so unnatural to us. I think this is why parting with our loved ones hurts us at the very core of our being. Yes, we have the modern convenience of telephoning, but the mimicking of a voice is not the same as seeing or touching someone you love. Simulation does not cut it when you want to be with a dear friend or loved one. Imagine a bride being given a lifesize photograph of her bridegroom on the night of her wedding with a cell phone to hear his voice for whenever she gets lonely or has the desire to tell him how deeply she loves him and how she wants nothing but to serve him for the rest of her years. If this woman were my sister, she would have all of Italy out in the streets in search of how to get her husband back to her in the flesh. Mama Mia, there would be quite a ruckus and rightly so! Our nature demands we have the real thing, but when that is taken away how sharp and how severe that pain reaches into the bowels of our soul. We want to have that person, we want to see them move, hear them breathe, look them in the eye; neither pictures nor telephones satisfy this need in us. Come to think of it though, it is because of this separation that people can love all the more and appreciate who it is they love. So what's better? I leave that for you to decide.
From this trip I have come to see how beautiful a thing marriage is and how blessed people are if they find that one person to share their life with. I am so grateful to God that my sister found that man whom she's always dreamed of having and please pray for their happy end. But there is another kind of love which I feel is worth mentioning; this love is not a love of matrimony, however its flame is just as real, perhaps even more so. This love is a love of sacrifice for it suffers in not possessing the one whom it loves. It must learn to love another without loving them. It suffers the negation of the one it loves for the good of the other but loves them nevertheless with the hope of one day seeing that love made manifest in the world of eternity. This love is hard and it is sad but it is truly beautiful. Though many experience the joys of marital love, I believe there are more people than are thought true, who can say they understand the latter love. While God blesses some with marriage He has blessed others by going without it. Indeed, both loves are hard and both are good but both are not always seen for the gift they are. So to those who are married, be grateful for it and never lose sight of the treasure you have been given. Never forget that moment when you promised your spouse you would be true to them until death did you part. Love them with all your heart and give them all that you are, for you'll never know how precious love is until you know what it is to go without it. Don't be the one to discover this truth once its all too late. Viva amore!